Current feelings (please forgive this long post)
Things seem to be going well in accordance to how my current life situation is, not like anything has really gotten better but I have just been dealing with things way better than I used to. True understanding of the self really does wonders when we actually try to evolve. It almost feels as if the adult switch located on the back of my head has finally switched on, congrats to me?
So I am up still because of my out of whack sleeping schedule, probably won’t be asleep until around 4ish… So I am going to type all my worries away in hopes to actually sleep normally tonight.
It hasn’t been that long since we have been making appearances in each other’s lives again and already it seems like I have created an uproar once again. I am just bad news, nothing good can spawn from Stacey, she is dysfunctional and weird and always has problems, she will never find her place in this world, she is just going to harm you, stay away from that girl
It’s sad this is how I see myself to people, maybe it is why I have such a yearning to find new people to be around, new people unknowing of me, I want to be a mystery again, I don’t want people to know my story right away but really is anyone willing to hear my story? What if I have already found someone willing to actually help me? This is always a rare occurrence when it happens that I never know what to do when it hits me that someone is willing to help me. At the same time my experiences with you have come and gone and it would be selfish of me to take you away from this new life you have adopted. All I really want to do is experience the life we were too young to have together, oh back in the day when we were young with no experience of the real world just ready to dive in together unknowing of what will hit us. I love you no matter what happens always no matter how much I hide you in the back in my head always you reappear, it’s that memory file in the back of my head that only you know the encryption code to bahh… I am thinking way to deep into this
goodnight tumblr!
